The Struggle is Real?

The struggle is real! — Or, is it?

My it has always been losing and maintaining a healthy weight. I have felt and agonized over the struggle for almost my entire life. When I was a child I was a victim of others taunts, but as I grew older I started to take things into my own hands. Unfortunately, being in control of my weight loss efforts didn’t alleviate the struggle, it merely made me feel that I was a failure. The struggle continued and it controlled me.

Yesterday, as I was practicing meditation (that’s a whole other story), I had a moment of surprising clarity. Maybe I should classify it as an Ah-ha! moment. The centering thought for the day’s meditation was “Now is my time.” ( At first it just seemed to be a very generic, positive statement then it made me realize that now is not an event it is ALWAYS. My time is always. It’s NOT a struggle, it’s ALWAYS. It’s not a task or goal to achieve, it’s who I am and what I want. It’s ALWAYS available to me.

When I remove the struggle for my perception and live in my time, my always, I feel relaxed and free. I’m no longer clenching on the inside. My time is always and if I want to truly experience it I need to stop clenching and struggling and embrace what it is offering.